Jail time? This is fucked.
I don't feel good. I don't know what to do. Normally when I have a problem with something in my life, I figure out how to change it, or fix it. But I don't think I have any control at all over this problem.
Drew has been in and out of court since March, and this time I think maybe he's going to jail. He has to be fingerprinted, and he has to go to trial. They gave him an option to enroll in Drug Court instead of all of that, but he doesn't have a drug problem, so he doesn't qualify to get off easy. I am not an attorney, and I do not have an attorney, so I don't know what's going to happen to him. But he might get a minimum of sixty days in jail.
In the midst of all of this, I am trying to find another job. I left my old job because I couldn't handle it anymore. The manager (when she was there) was a hypocrit and made my life hell while I was there, and while I was away. They didn't have enough people to help, and would not hire anyone else, for some reason. Even corporate ignored the well being of the employees. I coudln't take it anymore, being blamed for others' mistakes and my being trained wrong. Errrrr. I left. Anyway, I've come to a point where I have to get a job. I can't live like this, and I also can't live off of 90 year old women's funds and trust when I am reminded of my dead grandmother. I can't be the one that makes her uncomfortable. I can't be the one that has to hear of this and that idea and have too much access to drugs while I'm there. Not to mention my two good friends... one of them, Jef, has some weird idea that he can try to kiss me and when he hugs me he squeezes me and runs his hands up and down my back. I told him no, no, no. But no, he does not listen. I will not do that to someone else. Especially not Barbara. I've had enough of that situation, and it really doesn't pay enough, and the time I spend there confuses an already confused person trying to find her way.
So, I don't have a job, I don't have a car, I'm staying with a guy and my boyfriend... not sure if Drew goes to jail if I will want to stay here with Pat, our friend. I don't know what I will do without Drew by my side. It's hard enough when he's at work all the time. What will I do if he's in jail for a couple months? Somehow I don't really have friends my age. I have friends through Drew... I know they'll be there, but I can't stand thinking about this. But I want to be prepared for the worst. What if he does go to jail? Why does Drew deserve to go to jail? He is not the type that needs jail. He needs to learn his lesson some other way. He's already learned his lesson. He didn't do anything that warrants this kind of action. The government is fucked. I don't understand why this has to happen.
Drew has been in and out of court since March, and this time I think maybe he's going to jail. He has to be fingerprinted, and he has to go to trial. They gave him an option to enroll in Drug Court instead of all of that, but he doesn't have a drug problem, so he doesn't qualify to get off easy. I am not an attorney, and I do not have an attorney, so I don't know what's going to happen to him. But he might get a minimum of sixty days in jail.
In the midst of all of this, I am trying to find another job. I left my old job because I couldn't handle it anymore. The manager (when she was there) was a hypocrit and made my life hell while I was there, and while I was away. They didn't have enough people to help, and would not hire anyone else, for some reason. Even corporate ignored the well being of the employees. I coudln't take it anymore, being blamed for others' mistakes and my being trained wrong. Errrrr. I left. Anyway, I've come to a point where I have to get a job. I can't live like this, and I also can't live off of 90 year old women's funds and trust when I am reminded of my dead grandmother. I can't be the one that makes her uncomfortable. I can't be the one that has to hear of this and that idea and have too much access to drugs while I'm there. Not to mention my two good friends... one of them, Jef, has some weird idea that he can try to kiss me and when he hugs me he squeezes me and runs his hands up and down my back. I told him no, no, no. But no, he does not listen. I will not do that to someone else. Especially not Barbara. I've had enough of that situation, and it really doesn't pay enough, and the time I spend there confuses an already confused person trying to find her way.
So, I don't have a job, I don't have a car, I'm staying with a guy and my boyfriend... not sure if Drew goes to jail if I will want to stay here with Pat, our friend. I don't know what I will do without Drew by my side. It's hard enough when he's at work all the time. What will I do if he's in jail for a couple months? Somehow I don't really have friends my age. I have friends through Drew... I know they'll be there, but I can't stand thinking about this. But I want to be prepared for the worst. What if he does go to jail? Why does Drew deserve to go to jail? He is not the type that needs jail. He needs to learn his lesson some other way. He's already learned his lesson. He didn't do anything that warrants this kind of action. The government is fucked. I don't understand why this has to happen.
posted by Sea Change at 12:30 PM
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