It's interesting how things unravel

You think you have someone figured out, and then you see something about them that they've tried hiding. You can see only what you want to see, you can show only what you want to show - but then how do you know what exactly you're getting in the package deal? You can wrap something in wrapping paper that you cannot see through, and then you will have no idea that the inside holds broken parts, unfinished business, things that are not worked out. . . issues maybe you don't want to deal with? Issues that maybe you didn't bargain for?

I am starting to think that it is one of the rudest things to be dishonest and nothing more than absolutely open with the people that you are around every day. The people that you sleep with, the people you kiss, the people you tell your secrets to. The people that you take chances with. The people you let yourself loose around. The only time you feel cheated is when you find out that you are more open with someone than they have been with you. This happens more often than you would think. People are amazing liars. People are amazing actors - our civilization is based on drama. We have become a part of it.

Life is not something meant to be played safe. Yes, you survive, and you try not to put yourself in a position to be fucked over or to be had, or to be taken advantage of, but you have to let it go, and try again. You get up, dust yourself off, and learn to trust people again. People cheat, people lie, people steal, people do a whole lot worse than that that most people don't experience in their lifetime. Of all of the things that we do, we should at least be open with each other. If we don't want to or are not ready to open up, then don't put yourself in a situation to frustrate someone because YOU are the one NOT READY to open up. That is rude.

If you can't let it go, and try again - why am I wasting the time?

I fucking need a cigarette.