Thursday, October 26, 2006

My project is almost finished...

I've been building an apartment with my dad for myself. It has been a fairly short, slow-paced project, but during this last stretch, I've been feeling the stress of it, and I'm feeling a bit frazzled.

I also have a new friend who is, for once, as attractive or more attractive than I am. And equally witty and silly -- I think I've met my match. And it can be daunting when I think of introducing this girl to my HB, even though she is engaged. I just feel threatened, like she will show HB that he could have someone just like me, but prettier - or some feature that he likes better. So I was asking HB about this stuff... which I shouldn't have, but I feel like I need to be able to be open this way with him.

Now I'd just like to keep away from both of them until the apartment is finished, and I am moved in and able to pamper myself the way I'm used to, if not better than I'm used to, so that I can be my usual confident, spunky self.

I suppose I just need to put these particular issues at bay and focus on finishing my home possibly THIS weekend - it is exciting enough on its own without failing to recognize what a great accomplishment is at the tips of my fingers...