Friday, August 17, 2007

Negative self image

Who does my dad think he is? I grew up in a home where, if you were "overweight," that is, not rain-thin and in perfect shape, you were a nobody, or you were undisciplined, slothful, and just not a very strong person. And if you were not a strong person, you can't account for much, and you are not much of a person. When you become thin and "strong," you become a person of worth, of value.

I have had enough of this body and image of myself that has rooted itself to my childhood, and now, my adulthood! My father has no right to influence this part of my life. My body and how I see myself is my business. I will no longer allow my father to make me feel inferior and fat and a nobody. I have worth, and I am special.

I am pledging to be more healthy, and to get the exercise that I need. My father's opinion of this has no merit, as of right now. When my father brings this subject up the next time, I will tell him that it is no business of his. None whatsoever. I don't want to jepordize our relationship, but if telling him that my body image and trying to tell me how to live my life is going to jepordize my relationship with my father - SO BE IT. It is so not worth my negative image of myself and my body.

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