Red Light Camera

I had my first encounter with a red light camera last night. It was raining very hard, it was dark, and I was trying to downshift to go up a hill and through an intersection. The gears weren't cooperating (I own an '86 Toyota pickup... it's old sometimes), and I looked down, and then I looked up in time to see a yellow light, as I was ten feet from entering the intersection. I braked, and realized that if I kept braking, I would have slid right through that intersection. So I went through. And I saw two flashes, one in front of me, and one behind.

I was already really emotional yesterday, and I didn't need something else to stress me out as Fiancee and I are trying to get the finances more in order. It is really hard to get it figured out, especially when you're a kid, and you suddenly move out and suddenly have access to your savings account!

Basically, I moved out, got comfortable being taken care of, and not having parents around making sure that I'm doing "the right thing." Then I got lazy, and now I realize that I shouldn't have done it all in that order. I am now trying to get a job, and trying to lose about thirty pounds. Getting back on the track is proving to be hard. Fiancee has been really good about helping me and encouraging me along, however. I have been impressed. I think I am also falling even more in love with him; even more than I was when we first started dating. I like that feeling a LOT.

I am beginning to see that a good relationship is one that gets better with time (instead of the other way around, as most people have it).

I hope that if I contest (if that is the term) my red light camera ticket, they will let me off because of the circumstances, or at the very least, reduce it. I don't have anything else on my driving record, and I would like to keep it that way.